Tuesday thoughts

I was driving home this evening and started cruising the radio stations and happened upon Delilah on one of the stations. Delilah annoys the crap out of me, has for years. Partly it is the tone of her voice, which to me sounds patronizing. Still, plenty of people like calling into her show and requesting love songs for the people in their lives. I left it on the dial as I drove, trying to figure out why she bugged me so much. After all, many of the songs are ones that I enjoy if I hear them at other times. I grew up in the era of the 80's power ballads after all.

It occurred to me that hearing several songs like that in a row reminded me of junior high and high school dances. I do not remember those fondly at all. I could go over in gory detail about the many rejections that I faced and how alone I felt in those crowded rooms, but suffice to say that I disliked them enough that I went to 2 total dances in 4 years of high school. Once my freshman year, and then my senior prom. Both were awful experiences.

Wedding receptions to me are much the same as those dances. I at least am more likely to dance the fast stuff now, so I am not a total wall-flower, but when the smoochy romantic stuff comes on, I walk off the dance floor. I've never had a date to take with me to a wedding, and opportunities with other guys just don't seem to come up.

Basically, the Delilah show subconsciously reminds me of some of the occasions where I have felt most unwanted in a romantic sense. Geez, no wonder it aggravates me!

I long ago decided that if I ever get married, I will not have dancing at my wedding reception. There is something to be said for creating newer and happier associations with dancing, but honestly, the most fun I ever had at a wedding was my brother's. He had a beach party, where we all got into our swimsuits and just had no-pressure fun. I had already decided by then that I wanted a non-traditional reception, and his just cemented that resolve.

Zoo party, anyone? :-D